going on ninety

I can't imagine what it feels like
I can barely watch it
the frailness
of an aging body
the frailness
of youth
it's that in betweeness
that imaginary
tuffness
we spend so much time trying to
grow
that once we get there
we wonder how did it happen
where did it go
I can't imagine what it feels like
to let that all go
what do you see
when your eyes go a wandering?
what do they say
when they become watered
is it sadness or joy
in the end
I hold your hand close
and love you dearly
I think back to all the days we've spent
all the melodies played
and ears made happy
I feel grateful
and I feel sorrow
I am filled with emotion
beyond comprehension
for what I do not know
how can I understand
I wonder where you'll go
when you do
go
I hope she's there waiting for you
arms open
wrapping you in warmth and love
and you can feel at ease
and peace will take over
your pain washed away
I will hear you when you're gone
I will hear you in your song
when you're gone
you'll still be here
in my heart that is
right where you belong